Friday, January 22, 2010

love..

I wasn't brave enough to post this here, so instead I shared my deep thoughts on facebook with family and friends a few days ago. Not that I haven't poured my heart out on these pages in the past, but somehow this felt too personal and intimate. However I realized that all you lovely blog friends who have been so supportive and have given me so much love and strength needed to hear this too, so I want to share these thoughts and this powerful message today about .....

LOVE...



ok... i admit i miss my husband like crazy... i feel lost without him...

perhaps an intimate photo..yes, one that i'm not sure i feel comfortable sharing here... BUT... i want you all to see my pain, i want you to feel it deep in the crevasses of your souls, because then and only then will you understand and embrace my message. this message that i want to scream at the top of my lungs, these words that i share with you today as my tears roll down my cheeks and as the pain in my heart cripples me...

PLEASE...DO NOT WASTE A MINUTE OF YOUR LIFE, OF YOUR LOVE, OF YOUR SEARCH FOR LOVE! DO NOT MISS AN OPPORTUNITY OF A KISS, OF AN EMBRACE, OF A FEW WORDS THAT COULD MEAN SO MUCH... DO NOT LET MOMENTS, DAYS AND YEARS GO BY WITHOUT LOVE...THOSE FORTUNATE TO HAVE IT...HANG ON TO IT, NURTURE IT, FEED IT, LET IT LINGER IN YOU MOUTH, YOUR HEART, YOUR SOUL... THOSE IN SEARCH OF IT... DO NOT GIVE UP HOPE...

let this image and these words penetrate the depth of you hearts, don't forget them, let these be the reminder everyday that a life without love isn't much of a life...

what we had together was priceless... it was so deep...so solid...so real...and now that he's gone...all i have left is the LOVE and the memories... these memories that are my heaven and my hell, my pain and my relief, my joy and my sorrow...but they are real...they are mine...and they are all that's left of our love, and these memories are what give me the strength to live on, and be the solid pillar of love and hope for my boys...

think of these words today...live and love fully



love...peace...love...

18 comments:

  1. you have so much to say to help those of us that take this love for granted...thanks for the beautiful reminder..blessings friend!

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  2. Ok, I'll go hug and kiss my husband on my way to the post office this morning. Thanks for the wake up call dear friend.

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  3. This is beautiful! I'm so glad you decided to share it.

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  4. Everytime I read your blog I am reading a love story. I am so glad you posted this picture and your words are going to make many people today so aware of what life is really all about.

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  5. I understand what you are saying and I need to be reminded of this as I sometimes take what I have for granted. I have not lost a spouse, but when my mom died, I remember just wishing for one more time to hear her voice, etc. I keep stressing to my husband to spend time with his elderly parents, he doesn't "get it" on how he will feel when they are no longer alive. I think I need to incorporate how I felt about my mom's passing on how it could be with my husband and do things a bit differently than I'm doing them. (make sense?)

    betty

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  6. Thank you for reminding us to appreciate, enjoy and love all those around us. I don't do it enough, and I'm gong right over to my Huzz after typing this to hug and kiss him and tell him that he (and my kiddos) are my whole world.

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  7. Ah you're so right, as always...that's a lovely, beautiful and tender shot...very elegant. Thank you for sharing it with us.

    Love doesn't die, never xxx

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  8. Today is the day that I INSIST my husband make the appointment to get examined. (One of those procedures men don't like to talk about: not that one, the Other one - cancer has been running through his family.) He's put it off for more than a year and the hemming and hawing must s.t.o.p.

    Your post makes it clear to me that life without him would feel dreadful. Thanks for the reminder today.

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  9. That was so beautiful, and you are so right. The world needs more women and mothers like you. Thanks for posting this piece. xo kitty

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  10. I lived for years in a loveless marriage, always trying to fix it so it would be what I wanted and needed. I will never forget, during the legal separation, I was reading a book and it stated that one is willing to make a major change in life because there is something one cannot live without. It asked me, what can't I live without? I immediately realized I could not live without love or hope for love, and that was why I was divorcing him.

    Nine months into the divorce now, single motherhood is still very difficult at times. But I have learned to love God, and in turn God has brought me the man He wants me to love. I do tell him every day. I can't get back the loveless years, but they do bring deep meaning to what I have today. Thank you, Mari, for your openness, your vulnerability, your willingness to share.

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  11. Every time I read one of your posts, my heart breaks. I have been going through a painful and difficult time and your posts, which are filled with grace and courage, give me strength and remind me to value what I have. Today, I came to your blog hoping to find something honest that would pierce my heart and give me perspective. Thank you for sharing your stories. Even though I am a stranger, I want you to know that I love you for being brave. You are a rock and I pray for you and your family to find peace and happiness.

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  12. i agree with elk. your love always reminds me that i shouldnt take my man for granted.

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  13. go ahead and cry and scream if you need. a good cry always helps me when i am missing a loved one who have enter the gates. your love for your husband is apparent. i pray for you and your family.

    sending lots of positive vibes your way.

    one love.

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  14. i love this.. and you. i so need to email you.
    xo

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  15. My father died when I was four years old, leaving my broken-hearted mother to raise two little ones on her own. I've often wondered how she found the strength to not only carry on, but also to shine. Thank God she did :)

    A beautiful message...to live without fear and never take a moment for granted.

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  16. I don't even know what to say here. Your words are so passionate, so sincere, so necessary. I guess I just wanted to thank you.

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  17. What a message! You're so right, thank you to remind us with these beautiful words how love is important in our lives. You're very brave!

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