Thursday, December 24, 2009

give love...

As I sat down for a quiet cup of tea with my Gingerbread cupcake and the morning sun warming my heart... I thought of so many different things. The first thing that popped in my mind was the fact that never have I had a quite morning on a day like this, normally we would already be cooking away in the kitchen getting ready for Christmas dinner, perhaps running to the store for last minute items, or wrapping a few presents we didn't get to... In other words all the craziness that comes with the holidays. And as nice as my quite moment felt... it still made me think of all the things that are different now... As many of you have said before the first everything without my husband is going to be hard to experience.... So, yes this holiday season is very different for us...

But what I thought of mostly this morning... is all the love I have felt from everyone around me the past few months, love from family, friends, love from all corners of the globe from people whose hand I've never shaken or looked in their eyes and embraced after a few kind words. Yes, my friends I speak of you, and I can't tell you how much it warms my heart and lengthens my smile when I think of all the love and kindness that I've felt in the pages of my blog... I thank you all, and I want to send all of you so much love from my heart, as I have an abundance left behind by my husband... you have made a world of difference in our lives, I want you to know how much you have all meant to us, how many tears you've helped wipe away, how many smiles you've helped grow....I thank you!
And that is all one needs really.... love. When we love and let others love us... that warmth grows and glows forever in our hearts, no one and not a thing can take that feeling from us...

So this season...with all the little gifts you exchange, with all the hugs and kisses passed on.... most importantly don't forget to give love...give love sincerely, when you hug...hug warmly, when you from your heart, when you say "I love you" ... really mean it... believe me that is all anyone really wants, and if you dig deep.. you will see that it's all we ever want.

Merry Christmas, I send you all a warm, lingering hug :)


  1. Marin jan, thank you for being who you are...Truly a beautiful person inside and out...
    Your words truly touch everyone...
    Your innate ability to understand life and the happiness and pain it brings and the way you handle it is admirable...
    We love you very much <3


  2. Well said Aniko :) Mar, I think I speak for everyone when I say that as much as you feel that we have helped you...YOU are the one that has taught us so much. You have taught us how to have grace in the face of to love despite loss and how to show strength when all you feel is weakness. I love you Mar and wish you a merry x-mas! Love, Ani (gigi-ian)

  3. Oh, and those gingerbread muffins (I mean CUPCAKES as I have been reprimanded before) look so yummy. I think you need to come over for coffee tomorrow morning. And if you happen to bring along the cupcakes, well, so be it. No pressure or anything. Love, ani

  4. "We've grown to be one soul - two parts; our lives so intertwined that when some passion stirs your heart, I feel the quake in mine."

    Hats off to Gloria Gaither for these words <3

    And thanks to your lovely friends Aniko and Ani, the words from my heart is spoken.

    You bring sunshine to our hearts and remind us every moment what life is all about! I'm grateful for you!

    Merry Christmas!

  5. That was beautiful my dear sis once again you've expressed your feelings and emotions so beautifully. I love you and am with you always. The love and support of family and friends make the biggest difference at times like these specially. Love you sis and Aniko and Ani<333

  6. I love you and your family. You give me strength and I am thinking of you.

  7. your words seem strong yet sad all in one...and that is OK...i am so glad to have found you and am honored to read your very heartfelt words here each time i visit....blessed holiday and one day at a time!

  8. simple but great picture! nice post! enjoy the season anyhow, somehow! cheers eliane from ireland

  9. Once again you've brought tears to my eyes and warmed my heart at the same time. Such lovely words. I feel the love! Long hug right back to you.

  10. One of your best post just make you cry. Very strong and true words. This holiday season will be very hard for you your first year without your sweetypie. The only way you can make your pain little easy to think that he is not in pain anymore and he is there with you guys anywhere you go anything you do. Be strong as you always been and know that we are always here for you. MERRY christmas to you and your family. Warm Hugges and Kisses.

    Ani S.

  11. right back at you marinik. warm wishes and hugs. and i have a feeling we will shake hands one day:)

  12. This may very well be my favorite post of yours. All of them are so poignant and beautiful and soulful and sorrowful and hopeful. But this one is that and more. It is sparkling.

    You are an inspiration of grace through this transformation in your life. To recognize the love around you even as you grieve the loss of a love most precious is a testament to your strength and to your heart.

    I love you dear friend. And I want that gingerbread cupcake.

  13. Love you, Marin.

    Btw, I never had that cupcake, and I'm now regretting it. I had those sweet syrupy pancakes at Granville and just couldn't bring myself to have sweet right after. But that picture I just saw...mmm

    You're in my heart.