The truth is:
That I hate what is happening to my husband, to see him waste away in front of my eyes and not be able to do a thing about it.
The truth is:
That I am not handling this as well as I think I am, yes I survive through the day and do all that needs to be done and taken care of, yet still cry myself to sleep every night.
The truth is:
That he is handling this with so much courage and grace, I never thought was possible for a human being.
The truth is:
That I hate being alone because my thoughts take me to dark places that I don't want to go, yet I hate being around people too, as talking about all this is too hard on me.
The truth is:
That I do cherish every moment spent with him, yet I'm afraid of the future without him.
The truth is:
That his eyes say all the things he is unable to put in words.
The truth is:
That I'm grateful for having my boys, yet hate to see them suffer through this as well.
The truth is:
That life is too short and we must live in the now and breath in every moment entirely.
The truth is:
That there is so much to be said still and so much still undone, yet there has been so much said and experienced between us already.
The truth is:
That I want so much to wake up from this nightmare, and it can't be done.
And the truth is:
That as much as I hate to sound so cliche, but we should all live each day like it's our last, because we really don't know what tomorrow has in store for us!
Live
Love
And Laugh
That I hate what is happening to my husband, to see him waste away in front of my eyes and not be able to do a thing about it.
The truth is:
That I am not handling this as well as I think I am, yes I survive through the day and do all that needs to be done and taken care of, yet still cry myself to sleep every night.
The truth is:
That he is handling this with so much courage and grace, I never thought was possible for a human being.
The truth is:
That I hate being alone because my thoughts take me to dark places that I don't want to go, yet I hate being around people too, as talking about all this is too hard on me.
The truth is:
That I do cherish every moment spent with him, yet I'm afraid of the future without him.
The truth is:
That his eyes say all the things he is unable to put in words.
The truth is:
That I'm grateful for having my boys, yet hate to see them suffer through this as well.
The truth is:
That life is too short and we must live in the now and breath in every moment entirely.
The truth is:
That there is so much to be said still and so much still undone, yet there has been so much said and experienced between us already.
The truth is:
That I want so much to wake up from this nightmare, and it can't be done.
And the truth is:
That as much as I hate to sound so cliche, but we should all live each day like it's our last, because we really don't know what tomorrow has in store for us!
Live
Love
And Laugh
The truth is: Everything you are feeling is normal in this abnormal world you have been thrust into.
ReplyDeleteThe truth is: Even though you can't imagine getting through this, you will.
The truth is: It is natural to grieve for what might have been, but so far you still have many days of what is...and you will treasure those now and forever.
The truth is: Anything is possible. He is alive TODAY, and today is more than enough for today.
The truth is: Miracles happen every day. Don't discount that yours could be right around the corner.
The truth is: You are both doing an amazing job of walking through this challenge with integrity, grace, and dignity.
Thanks Sue.
ReplyDeleteI guess sometimes I have my low days...
Thanks for the encouraging words.
Oh, honey, it's okay to have low days. You wouldn't be human if you didn't. I just like to remind you of the "up's" so when you're down you remember the reasons for getting up again. Believe me, I understand that some days it would be so easy to get down and stay down. But you have so many reasons to not stay there. Sometimes it's just hard to remember them when you're in a sad and lonely place in your heart. I have complete confidence in you that you will do your best each day...and on the days when your best is pretty limited, I remind you that tomorrow is another day.
ReplyDeletePraying for you!
Sue,
ReplyDeletewhat can I say..., you must be an angel who somehow found your way into my world, The words you say, and the strength you posses is so inspiring. I hope that you are doing well with your own battle with cancer. I thank you so much for making my day each time you visit and leave a comment. I wish you all the best from the bottom of my heart.
Bless you :)
Hoping you get through this low with the least possible bruises. Stay strong. Youve been brilliant so far.
ReplyDeletethe truth is that the strength we need comes to us when we most need it. i've not experienced what you're going through, but admire the way you're writing honestly and openly about it. i think that can only be healthy and for the best.
ReplyDeletesending positive thoughts your way.
:-)
/julie
dash and julochka, thanks for all the positive thought. and yes writing about it seems to help, that's the whole reason i started this blog :)
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